The newborn phase this time around has been different. With Tyler, he was the first, and I was so excited for him to hit each new milestone--when will he roll over? Sit? Hurry--learn to crawl! (Ha Ha on that last one, you never wish for kids 2-4 to learn to crawl because you know how much life changes with a mobile child.) The twins newborn phase was a kind of survival mode. But with Jackson, I am treasuring him. More than with any of the other kids, I want him to stay little. While I would love to try for one more, realistically this will be our last child. I might never get another newborn? That makes me sad; I love the newborn stage.
But, no one has figured out how to stop time, and so Jackson turned 3 months old last week.
He is my angel baby. God knew I could only handle so much craziness, and so he sent me this sweet, mild baby. Jackson is not a fussy boy. In fact if he is crying, you either need to pick him up and love on him or feed him. He sleeps well, will sit in his swing, and loves when I wear him. In fact, he is such a sweetie, that I sometimes feel bad. I will realize at the end of the day that I haven't loved on him the way I wanted to, because (squeaky wheel and all) the twins take up so much of my time.
He gives us amazing smiles, and I so wish I could capture one on film. He has also started "talking" to us. He was always a bit of a grunter, but he now adds in coos.
I weaned him just after he was 2 months. I wish I could have nursed longer--I loved it. But my body wouldn't cooperate and breastfeeding and bottle feeding at every feeding was wearing me out. He takes a bottle well and certainly shows it.
Tyler was a wonderful sleeper, and I thought it was because I was a bit of a schedule nazi. I took more of an on-demand approach with Jackson, and while he wasn't sleeping through the night at 12 weeks like Tyler, he still sleeps pretty well. He will go at least 6 hours every night, and the last few nights he has hit 8+ hours!
Sometimes I just find myself staring at him, or smelling his head, wrapping his fingers around mine. I feel so blessed. I didn't think we would ever have another, and then this miracle happened. I love him.