Um, parts of the adoption process just suck. We were packed and ready to go Tuesday night, and just called our agent to make sure everything was still on for us to fly out Wednesday morning. The birth mom is MIA. No one could find her or get a hold of her--not our agent, not her social worker, not her doctor. WTH? You know, Dan and I have prepared ourselves that something might happen; we went into this process (especially because of what has happened in the past) knowing that things might not go according to plan. But I don't understand why someone would just vanish? Own up to your decisions please. Answer your phone and say you changed your mind. Heck, even if you were just playing the system all along, please continue your little charade and tell your social worker you are not going to go through with the adoption. She knew that we were planning on flying out Wednesday, she didn't care that we would be out tickets, car, and hotel?
Rereading what I just wrote, it's pretty obvious that my emotion right now is one of anger. I am definitely more angry than sad right now. Like I said, I had prepared myself emotionally for the worst, but I can't get over the fact that she just didn't care at all to answer for herself.
Anyway, we really are doing okay, just letting go of some of this bitterness. We do want to say a big thank you to all who have kept us in your prayers. We still feel like we need to keep pursuing adoption, and I know that our baby is going to find his or her way into our home. Thanks again!