Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Our crazy summer

This summer has just been crazy.

It all started when we decided to move. 

Then I found out I was pregnant, and spent 3 months tired, queasy, and stressed over a subchorionic hemorrhage. 

I have spent all summer trying to be a good mom, but not feeling successful.  Tyler watches entirely too much television, and the twins are both adorable and completely destructive. 

When we'd been in the house just under a month, Dan told me his boss wanted him to apply for a promotion at work, that would require we move.  So I stopped trying to settle into the house until we knew anything for sure, which has left us living in an unorganized mess. 

We found out last week Dan did get the promotion, and so we are now preparing for a cross country move, and trying to do it all before school starts.  Next week we take off for Utah.  I told Dan if he was making me move, I had to be going somewhere I have some support, because by the end of the year I will have 4 children, 3 under 3. 

We also went to the doctor's on Monday, and found out we are having a boy.  I will admit to crying in the office.  And then spending the rest of the day feeling guilty==how could I feel sad over a healthy baby who I have been praying for for 8 years!

Perhaps the best word to describe these last 3 months is emotional.  So many highs and lows.  I think I have felt just about every emotion I can feel.  All I can do is try my best to enjoy the ride, right?

11 comments:

Amber said...

Well, holy wow. I'm reeling just reading about this. Bless you.

Don't be hard on yourself for crying at the Dr's office. I cried when I found out Carmen was a girl. It was silly and I now attribute it to hormones. You raise such wonderful boys! We'll miss you all.

Shelly Cunningham said...

I understand feeling somewhat disappointed about not having a daughter. For me, though, once Wyatt was in my arms, squishy, healthy & oh-so-lovable --I was smitten. As I am sure you will be, too. Somehow God knew what I needed. And that was another little boy. I hear you on the "three kids 3 and younger"... It's an insane challenge. I can't imagine throwing an older kid in the mix, too.
Good luck with the move. Here's hoping your life smooths out for a bit before baby boy makes his debut!

Alisha said...

I agree with Amber...blame it on hormones. Carson and Hailey laugh at me because I cry (okay bawl is more like it) at every single movie we watch lately.
Hooray for a boy! You will be prepeared and know what to expect.

Angela said...

Yeah its totally hormones. You're pregnant, stressed and you could have cried because you chipped a nail or found out its a boy, you know? Its ok and you'll find your peace. Way to survive so much change!

Kimberly said...

Angela, I haven't checked your blog for a while, but after reading that you are moving to Utah on FAcebook, I had to check your blog. Maybe this would be better to write you in an email, but I don't know if I have your address right. Anyway, do you know what I thought when I read this post? I felt the magnificence of what you are doing. Maybe that sounds really cheesy, but that's what I thought. I know it's probably crazy with emotions all over the place, not really feeling settled, etc. but you are doing some amazing things...even miraculous. I'm so happy for you that you are pregnant. I'm excited that you get to be back by your family. I know you will love that. Hang in there. When I read this, I also wanted to give you a big hug. You can do it. You were born "for such a time as this."

Sara R. said...

Angela - I just stumbled upon your blog the other day and I want to say you have a beautiful family! Congrats on your pregnancy and don't feel guilty about crying in the doctor's office... It's ok to be disappointed about not having a little girl... but from the limited amount of time I've spent reading your blog I can tell you will be an excellent mother to your 4 boys!

Good luck with the move!

Vicki said...

Congrats! Your boys are adorable. 4 will be a wonderful handful!

Camilla said...

Wow, Angela!! I had not idea things were so crazy for you!!!

Sorry you were sick, sorry for the craziness. I understand too much T.V. and a messy twin house. It sucks.

I am glad you will be closer by, and SUPER glad you got will welcome another spirit into your wonderful home!!

Camilla said...

Wow, Angela!! I had not idea things were so crazy for you!!!

Sorry you were sick, sorry for the craziness. I understand too much T.V. and a messy twin house. It sucks.

I am glad you will be closer by, and SUPER glad you got will welcome another spirit into your wonderful home!!

Trine said...

Enjoy your little blessing growing inside you :) When you meet him you'll forget every having shed a tear... in the meantime, don't be too hard on yourself for that.. emotions run high during pregnancy and all our hopes and dreams are different. This baby will be an incredible gift and your lives are about to get a whole lot more crazy! (i'm from a family of 5, it's awesome to hear of other "large" families..I loved it as a kid and still now) Good luck xxx

niki said...

when are you moving?? we need to get together before then one last time!and yay for another boy, you make such cute ones.